Let the sun kiss your skin and tell you how much it loves you. It doesn't last forever but it's enough to suffice the cravings. Let it tell you how beautiful you shine and with every shadow it proceeds to make, know that you must be strong and willing to love both the good and bad. A new day begins but the past will always follow. Everything that has happened thus far has shaped and molded you into the person you are today.
Embrace. Love. And stay resilient.
TOP: Forever 21 / BOTTOMS: Charlotte Russe / FOOTWEAR: Sears / ACCESSORIES: Francesca's, DSW
It's a breather to wake up feeling good and confident. Soaking in all the goodness and light there is to have. I smiled and goofed. This is good, we're gonna be good. Being in love with yourself and showcasing you won't ever stop trending. The best kind of love is self love.
I want to take a minute or two to relax and intake all of what has truly happened. Knowing that I'm single and having guys hit on me makes me feel inconsiderable at times and sick inside just because I still don't feel okay. I can admit that. Of course, with time it "should" heal but knowing me, I just push through it and forget because that's the only way I know how. But let's not pretend that it didn't happen, it did and I am accepting it. I've been accepted the ugly truth awhile ago, so my progression is moving rather quickly. All I know is that I am not letting this control my movements. I've kept a good momentum going and now, just now and I no longer want to keep living in this cloudy space of mine. BIG wake up call.
Yes. I got dumped and I am moving forward in life. I am reminded every single day about how valuable and worthy I am; standing my ground and staying true to myself. I don't find myself in other people very often but I don't use them to heal from past mistakes either. I convert them into a learning situation and hope to progress towards a version I know I'm capable of being. I don't believe that there is anything in this world that I cannot accomplish either; anything that comes easy isn't worth having so I'll continue to challenge myself and those around me.
I don't think anything less of it nor let it consume me. I am choosing to walk away from this chapter in my life with open eyes and heart so that I can be better for the next awakening. I'm learning and rebuilding who and what I am with all of the hidden truths. Don't hang on! You mustn't continue to make excuses for those who cannot help fix the blurred lines.
I was on fire. I was inspired. Still am and ready to continue to keep pushing. I know better. And I know that I will not tolerate those who do not know what they're seeking in life left alone engaging intimacy in other souls to feel alive, wanted, or needed. I stand here telling myself and other young beautiful women that confiding your problems, dreams and hopes should always be with someone who wants to work through a strong and committed relationship. At the end of the day, you're your first priority. Never lose sight of what you want and how you're going to get it.
I decided that the only way I know how to be free is to shed off all of the old and bring in the new. I cut my hair today. I gave it some new life and forgave myself for not doing enough. I always felt that I wasn't enough but the excuses I've made only hurt me more in the long run. I don't think I can continue to blind myself from the truths when they're in front of me. My gut instincts has never failed me so thank you for pushing me onto a better path, a path I know will take me to places I would've not been able to do on my own.
I am surrounded by so many loving souls and characters therefore I cannot sit here and stew for unanswered questions. I am not 100% the same person as I was before but I'm still the free spirited babe I've always been. A bit broken but stronger, wiser and softer in the heart.
I am naive and a bubbly soul. I get taken advantage of and I have a huge heart but it doesn't mean I'm going to let this make me bitter. Resentment is not something I need. If I don't let go, then I will never move forward. I want to sit here and tell you how to become a better person but only you can do that for yourself. Be a reminder that you're brave. You set your own tone and standard in life so don't ever let anyone else tell you to settle. Keep searching, exploring and learning.
Please don't entangle yourself in something you can't control. I still smile. I still laugh. I can smell spring and summer around the corner. As vague as I am at times, I only let the sun lead my way and heal my soul.
I had a great day. A good day. Hope you all had a beautiful weekend!
When you dress good, you feel good.
xo, missmaichi 💛